nikitaduncan - orgasms portraits of sexual energy

ariel's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:27:43 CDT

Favorite colors: cool colors, lime green, dark green, sky blue, metallic blue, navy, lavender, violet, pretty much all those colors. “I'm really difficult to interpret, I'll tell you that from the beginning. I'm not in an awake state, I'm in a different tier during most of my orgasms. Verbalizing uses a different part of the brain... it's difficult to think of details because I'm in a different level of consciousness. I'm not quite asleep but I'm not quite awake. I hate sleeping after homework. I know homework and orgasms aren't the same, but orgasms are like a way to get my mind off homework. Orgasming by myself is a way to bring myself to a state more conducive to sleep. I'm in this physical body, more like a shell. I'm existing in this shell. I feel like a vessel, and there's this gas inside the vessel. My energy is like this gas in the physics sense. As far as physical ways, joining together is the closest you can get. When you orgasm you're connecting the two; you're reaching inside as far as you can get inside that shell. When you orgasm you're putting heat inside the gas and that makes it expand. My view is the inside surface of the vessel. You're getting more pressure on the inside so it's like you're pressed up against the inside of the vessel, trying to get outside yourself. The pressure builds and builds and my consciousness is trying to get out. When I orgasm it's a really intense release. All this energy goes out this little tiny hole and it's an elated release of the high energy gas from the vessel. I never leave the vessel though, and I've always wanted to. I'm half asleep by then anyways. My point of consciousness is the inside of the vessel and it stays there even though the energy is getting released. I feel like I'm in this space, like the sky kind of, but it's not so bright. It's not gloomy but it's in a non-physical world. The energy that's released joins the space in the non-physical world. It's really positive, the energy is a positive release. And obviously it's really exciting because naturally it's that way. The others I have are much shorter. There's this interesting technique I came up with- I suck in, breathe in, taking air and pulling it up to my head and then push with those muscles as I breathe out. Sucking in and out becomes like a meditative process, and you have to focus because you have to isolate those muscles. Those are more intense sometimes because the exercise makes them more pronounced. It's a meditative rhythm like you're running, and then you run off a cliff but you're floating in air still, like those cartoon characters that only fall after they've realized that there's no ground below them. It's really cool because the feeling lingers. It's like "is it happening? Is it happening? Oh my gosh it's happening!" And then you fall. But it's a wonderful flying fall. The only part that sucks about falling is landing, but you don't land here, you fall asleep!”

samantha's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:21:32 CDT

Favorite colors: brick red, yellows, orange, browns. I hate purple and blue. "Well, honestly, there’s many different levels. I have kind of a negative relationship with sex, so this is hard to explain. I’ve had relationships where the sex isn’t good and it’s sucked. I forget to breathe, and I get secular headaches because of it, so when I orgasm my head explodes with pain. I have to remember to breathe, otherwise I get a splitting headache. There’s a lot of sexual tension in me right now. I love having sex! I’m a lesbian; I’ve never had sex with a guy. During sex I focus on the other person because it’s more pleasurable for me. For me it’s everything leading up to the orgasm. Knowing that they’re allowing you to get to know every part of them. I need to be able to look them in the eyes. I like organic things. I feel a rush in the front part of my body and in my head (because of the headaches). It’s like I’m strangling myself because I’m not breathing. I like my body being taken over, and I like it when it’s mutual. I’m kind of quiet, not really loud. When I orgasm, it’s much like watching the sun rising. It takes a while before it seems like anything’s happening, and then………. Afterwards I don’t want to be touched at all; I just want to grab onto the other person and hold on as tight as I can."

michael's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:21:25 CDT

Favorite colors: darker blues, darker colors, gold. "There’s that saying about males always being ready to go – that’s me. I have the ability to orgasm without ejaculating and vice versa. I masturbate a lot. I masturbate or orgasm 8 or 9 times a week. You’ve just got to take care of it! I set aside 20 minutes minimum to an hour – 11:30 to 12:30 is masturbation time. It’s my release. All the pent-up stress builds and then radiates out. I feel everything. When the blood rushes out I get a pleasant warm feeling; my arms get cold and tingly. My senses are alive, electrified! Pleasure shoots up my body around my head. It’s like I’m dying. I would describe it as a black field with golden lightening. It’s like having a seizure. A rumbling ocean right before a tidal wave. The pleasure goes straight through my eyes, and my eyes roll back in my head during the climax. Heat rushes out at climax. I’m very visual. You’re not going to find anyone as crazy as I am. Patience is a virtue, not one I have. I’m very responsible, I don’t drink, and I’m very in control of myself and my surroundings. I tend to be manipulative when I’m bored; it makes for amusing situations. Even when I’m playing games there is a purpose. There are boundaries to everything I do. I am a virgin. I’m also atheist. I’m very sensual with friends. I’m an amazing masseuse; I’m very good with my hands. Sometimes you just need something to do with your hands."

nikki's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:21:18 CDT

Favorite colors: purple, blue, vibrant colors, NO dull colors or pastels "Mentally I usually have a heightened sense of thought. I notice colors really brightly but I don’t really notice other things. I think my eyes are closed when it happens. Physically I get really tense. I’m really sensitive to touch. I think that I tend to push away right after it happens, I don’t like a lot of cuddling afterwards or anything. A little bit afterwards I want to, but not right after. The actual orgasm part isn’t very long- it’s really pretty short but I can feel the effects long after. I think I’m loud if I’m allowed to be. Ideally I would be loud, but I have a roommate. I think because I have to be quiet that’s why my physical sense is so heightened. Sometimes it’s really emotional, like I’m so tensed up and then it’s released inside of me. Sometimes I feel very vulnerable, like I’m very aware of my body all of a sudden. I get very hot, not hot like a sweaty hot, but like a fire inside me. Almost like a fever: you feel it inside you and you’re really sensitive to people touching you. Sometimes I have thoughts I’m trying to work out or some idea or a solution to a problem and I figure out the answer after I orgasm. I really like the idea of the OM symbol because it’s part of my Indian culture and I really like the different charkas. I feel like my experience has gotten better. I think that being in love has heightened my experience because we can work out what we want rather than in a newer relationship where it’s more difficult to navigate."

miranda's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:21:09 CDT

Favorite colors: deep purples, yellow, blue. "It feels like everything goes quiet. It’s quiet because when I feel like I make noise, it’s not for me, it’s for him. I forget about him. I breathe heavily, I can’t hear it, but I can feel my heart beat. I was so infatuated with what I felt. It was glorious. You don’t expect it coming and then when it starts to actually happen, everything goes quiet. Everything tingles too; my face, pinky fingers, and ring finger. My orgasms are very long-lasting and powerful. Other people probably think I’m quiet, but I wait until I’m comfortable to let people in. Once I open up, people think I’m a good listener and easy to talk to. I’m attracted to a lot of people. I slowly examine the way people move and act and I feel myself fantasizing about what we would be like together. Most guys just think I like to fuck with their heads, even if it’s not intentional. I’m seldomly attracted to guys for more than a couple of weeks. I like guys that are suave, but I need a connection, otherwise I can’t fantasize past kissing."

glenda's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:21:02 CDT

Favorite colors: fall colors; I’m all about the lower charkas. "I am sedate in everyday life; sex is the area where the more extremes come out. I’m not very serious about sex, it’s just a hoot! I’ve been known to laugh in the middle of it. I’m very vocal, and goofy, there are some weird sounds. It’s like having dinner at an Indian restaurant, you bring your own flavor to the table and pass it around. Some combinations work. There are many different kinds of orgasms and mini-orgasms. I call them “almost orgasms.” They are centralized in the genitals. They’re kinda fun, kinda fluttery. It’s like riding the wave of an orgasm. There’s a quiet intensity and something really powerful about not going over the edge. There’s a tension, like a rolling sensation, and a thundering power that keeps going and going. Solitary orgasms are really quite powerful. I use technology, I can get more for the time. Masturbation is about letting the body rip. It’s just to get off- the point is to have an orgasm. Sex with a partner is more holistic; it’s a whole body experience. Kundalini – really letting it loose and yelling about it. My head is always busy, [but when I’m with someone else] I completely loose the ability to speak and think coherently. I love being in touch with my partner. I like the feeling of someone inside me. It just rocks! It’s really powerful. I’m so energized afterwards. My body is capable of things that a lot of people would be freaked out at. I can come more than once, and the pleasure builds with subsequent orgasms. [The] moment of penetration is orange. It’s like a snake-like movement. The best orgasm I had was when I was hog-tied and being fingered from behind. It was like a half-hour orgasm. I was along for the ride, and there was a powerful sense of being out of control. I could never do that to myself. Everything gets filtered through the pleasure center. I realize things afterwards. It would have to be abrupt to be distracting. Group sex is distracting; I can’t focus on any one person enough."

meagan's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:49:03 CDT

Favorite colors: blue, turquoise, greenish. "They’re piercing. I have to make it happen, I always have to tighten my muscles. If I was passive, I don’t think it could happen. Usually they sneak up on me. It’s kind of painful, like this satisfying pain. It goes up my spine and then my hands get goose bumps. As good as it feels, I don’t know if I crave it that much. I can be loud. I like to make a noise, it just seems natural to me. My energy is cold, I feel chilled, as in refreshed. I always feel surprised when it happens. I get the sensation of being unzipped. It’s like this dark hallway…… then suddenly a blue light illuminates it. When I meditate I can get the same feeling on my neck. I’m very structured until orgasm, then it’s chaos. I have very short orgasms, they’re brief, and it’s a painful release. I curl up into the fetal position when it’s over."

kelly's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:48:56 CDT

Favorite colors: cobalt, burgundy, eggplant. "Orgasms are elusive. They’re always evolving and changing. They’ve been different my whole life. I’m coaxing out something; this wild animal that’s afraid to come out. I’m very warm usually, and my cheeks get flushed. If it’s a good one, they start in my feet. My feet go numb. I’m very detached from them, it’s like they’re a separate entity that is not a part of me. I’m very masculine, meaning I’m a selfish orgasm-haver. I become closed when I have them, and I have to fantasize heavily (not even about the guy I’m with). I feel lots of pressure to have an orgasm. I don’t have them like I used to, and I’m never after it. I’m after sex and sexuality but not the orgasm. It’s such an afterthought! It takes a long time to get an orgasm and they’re short too. The three to four seconds right before an orgasm are by far the best. I get a tingly numbness in my legs and muscle spasms in the back. I’m a busy thinker while it’s happening, now it’s such a mental thing. I love sex though. Being a good lover to someone else is what I care about the most, that’s what gets me off and satisfies me. I love sensual acts."

renee's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:48:51 CDT

Favorite colors: aqua, blue, green, silver. "It depends on the situation. For me personally, I need passionate, full-bodied, full-chakra engaged sex. Like when it’s cerebral. I need emotional stimulation for it to be gratifying. The intensity is in the navel down, the genitals, my heart. I’m physically warm. Typically I prefer an amazing physical connection. It depends on the partner. Verbalization – sometimes people need it, but I don’t. It’s all about chemistry, touch, and awareness of the partner. I totally love eroticism, but not weird masks or anything. Touch, scent, and sense of touch is heightened. The pupils dilate, the heart rate goes up. You kind of just go into this liquid, this nurturing liquid ecstasy. It’s like a lava lamp consistency. The body is spinning and then the release. There’s a warm bubbling fluid that’s suddenly in your head, and then when you climax, it rushes our to my limbs."

john and suzanne

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:48:43 CDT

John’s favorite colors: black, red, purple Suzanne’s favorite colors: black, red, blue, silver John said: "I was thinking that having sex was so right... but doing it straight away might go all wrong... I was so nervous... I only wanted to please her so I would not loose her. I was anxious to get to the end even though I enjoyed every second of it. I know I shouldn't be driven towards the final orgasm alone, but this was our first and in some ways mine too. I wanted us to have this bond of energy, of openness and of immortality together. I was so desperate for it as it sealed us together. I was very conscious of myself but on occasion I drifted away in my own bubble of ecstasy, making me feel utterly invincible. I began to feel so powerful and so dangerous to everyone and everything but to her... but as I felt the very final force and heat in me building, my focus suddenly changed and was entirely on her. I became very aware of every part of her and I wanted to see everything. There were no barriers or boundaries at this point. I connected to her in every way, trying as much as I could to be a physical part of her. I was aware she was happy and enjoying it, wanting herself to make me orgasm... I stared straight into her eyes; I could not do otherwise and braced myself for what was coming. At that point I think it’s hard for anyone to describe; I was strangely acute to the area inside her, almost letting my conscious mind flow to that very part of my body as I now lost control. My body literally exploded in every part as a wave of energy from my center. Whilst expanding and contracting at lighting speed, my muscle strength boosted to ten fold of what it was. I tensed to try and control the primal wild beast instinct which took hold of my body and soul and mind. The movement of us and our bodies was now entirely instinctive. In a way, I had lost complete control. The feeling was so great that my mind has difficulty accepting it as reality. I held her protectively under my body as a dome of power and energy; I am the epicenter of a nuclear blast personified and I feel like I have the same capabilities. It doesn't last long, but neither short. It’s a small taste of heaven which the gods left in us to remind us of what it felt like, some believe. Later it dies down and we become human again, but still as one. We have gone to a place together, an unearthly place yet in a very natural way. It felt so right and so liberating, my mind free of inhibitions and doubt. We drew each other close, eyes still connected." Suzanne said: "The first time he and I made love I was weary because I wasn't sure how we would react to each other. I haven't had a lot of sex; physically it's never felt that amazing to me, it's always been better psychologically. At first I was a little insecure about my body, but I was very confident about my feelings for him. I so badly wanted it to be perfect for both of us. With the fluttering of a million butterflies I stood by his bed, thinking about whether we were bold enough to do what we both wanted to. It was like shaking hands, but with our bodies. Although he and I didn't know each other that well, I knew we were following our hearts. I guess we weren't that nervous, but we wanted it to be good and we didn't know each other's tastes. I remember him being on top of me for most of the time and I was hugging him with my legs. We were looking each other straight in the eyes. I felt like we wanted to know each other in every possible way. We wanted to give ourselves completely but parts of ourselves were still holding out. He had difficulty keeping his erection and I had difficulty letting him see me in my entirety. I felt less vulnerable as I became more comfortable with our bodies together. Towards the end I opened up and started to let the primal urges take over. I wanted to come with him but it’s not easy for me to orgasm strictly from intercourse. He came first, and then I did afterwards…"

alexei's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:48:38 CDT

Favorite colors: the absence of color. Muted colors, black, white, gray. "I am filled with extreme regret (for ever letting it happen in the first place). It doesn’t matter if I reach that point because there’s some sick twisted pain in not letting myself get there and I like that. I don’t think you can feel so much pleasure and regret at the same time. It’s like accidentally base-jumping. I’m unworthy, I don’t deserve it. If it happens it’s like I’ve lost control. I feel it mostly in my toes, the tops of my feet, right behind my eyes, and the obvious location. The intensity is behind my eyes. My hearing becomes echoed for about 20 seconds; it sounds like I’m in a funnel. Then it transfers to my vision, and it’s like there’s little fireworks off in the distance that I could see if I was in a very dark place. [The fireworks are] like a code or a message. It’s a faded image. I feel like I’m about to fall over. My skin becomes pale and ghostly. I don’t like the male ego. I was raised by a very strong woman; I was raised with so much equality. I’ve always hated the stereotypical guy who becomes more of a guy when it happens. I hate to be associated with them; it’s like they could be in a zoo! I’m happy being a guy, I just don’t like thinking like a guy."

sedona's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:39:42 CDT

Favorite colors: pink, light purple, blues, light greens. "It's like... there's a build up. I get a tingly feeling in my feet. I get these waves where I know it's coming, bursts of energy, and then a freeing release. It only lasts a few seconds. The emotion behind it makes it really intense; it's only intense because I'm with someone I love. When I close my eyes, sometimes I see like a lava lamp type green. Other times there's these bursts. When I get reiki work I see the same thing. I'm not aware of anything else... it's like there's a little bubble around us. I get tingles from my feet to butt, then down my arms to my fingertips. They're strongest in the core- in my abdomen. I'm pretty shy, probably an introvert, but when I orgasm, I'm LOUD!"

nina's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:39:36 CDT

Favorite colors: all colors depending on the circumstances. Deeper colors to light during orgasm. "Oh God… I’ve never been asked to describe this on the spot before. I like all orgasms; I like the awkward ones and the ones where we come together. If I don’t trust a guy I can’t orgasm with him. Trust is huge! It feels like all the events in my life culminate in this hot, warm explosion! Everything travels through me; secrets that my body stores. Each one is different. It’s an affirmation of life. You forget yourself, and through that you realize yourself. When I’m with a partner I fell pure unity that I can’t experience any other way. The possibility that it might hurt excites me. It starts as a warm tingly caress inside of me and then shoots to my lower back and thighs, down to my feet and up my torso. Then my body is totally relaxed. Generally it comes from really intense movements that result in this total stillness and calm. It’s like you experience different selves. The goal isn’t necessarily to orgasm, it’s to continue feeling pleasure. After you orgasm you change, it’s like you’re a different person. It’s like running through a mud puddle. When it’s happening there is so much agitation and there is just one muddy color. After it settles, everything goes back to its individual state. I’m loud, which is interesting because typically in public situations I’m not loud. It’s funny, it just comes out, I don’t think about it."

kurt's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:39:30 CDT

Favorite colors: blue, black, yellow, silver. "Even though the orgasm itself is only a few seconds, I get the greatest rush. I know an orgasm’s approaching because I’ll feel these waves of energy… it’s like I’m immersed in these waves of energy! It’s an anxious energy combined with a powerful force that creates a very complete physical feeling. I feel all my muscles my upper body become warm and tense and then it’s like BAM! It’s one of the only times where I feel truly vulnerable, and I think that is what makes it so intense- the lack of hang-ups. There’s all these levels of arousal I can go through and in that moment I get a extremely pleasurable euphoric sensation which gradually diminishes. The physical nature of what is happening almost overwhelms everything else that is happening. Ejaculating is the most important thing for me… it’s like ‘here I am!’"

aron's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:39:25 CDT

Favorite colors: bright colors. I like the flamboyancy and depth of color. "Orgasms… are spectacular. I don’t focus on the feeling of the orgasm. I focus on the moment that I’m in. Orgasms come second to the connection of sharing my body and having someone share their body with me. The apex of lovemaking comes in complete openness and comfort. They start well before I’m actually in the literal process ejaculating. There’s a very enjoyable sensation telling me the orgasm’s coming. It goes away and then comes back again. It builds from enjoyable to climactic and amazing. There are intervals. It builds and builds and builds! There’s a second climax within the orgasm – this is the magical part where everything gets released. When the second climax subsides, there are instances where I loose my hearing. I can hear my own breathing though. I’m almost completely shut off to things around me; it brings me into my own inner being for about 30 seconds to a minute. There’s a medium-tone humming sound that drowns everything out. Afterwards the only things I hear are really obscure things like the neighbor’s AC unit, things that I would not hear normally. The head of the penis is where most sensation takes place. The other sensation is a beautiful, magical floating energy or aura that’s around my partner and I. The best ones are when it’s simultaneous with my partner. I am quiet. I’m resistant to being loud; it’s a turn-off to myself. I’m calm. I’m sensitive to my partner’s needs and communication is huge. I want to be exploratory, so knowing what she likes is really important. It must be mutual."

adam's orgasm

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:39:17 CDT

Favorite colors: cool colors, purple, green, blue, black, white. "My orgasms are really tense and tight. My muscles constrict a lot. Sometimes I will throw out my neck! It’s like I’m being stretched like taffy, it can be painful. It’s like my veins are being filled with syrup and it goes down into my legs. My upper body spasms and I make choking noises… some guttural gasping. Usually I’m concentrating on not hitting my head on something hard. I like to think of my toes and what they’re doing. There was one guy I was with who always called attention to his feet so I can’t help but think of that. My emotional state is like a stasis. I’m really conscious of what my face is doing, it’s a ridiculous expression- it should never be seen! I have no idea what’s going on inside of them but I don’t think they’re having as much fun as me. My body’s like a little spring. Orgasms are better by myself because I’m not thinking about how I appear to others. Afterwards it’s like I’m not tired, I could eat some popcorn or call my mother. There’s been one or two that have wiped me out though. I feel like I have wings that are growing out of my back and my shoulders get thrown back. The energy level is like a quick ascent and then a plateau, it goes down, goes up, and then down again. I was Mormon so religious imagery seems fitting; it’s hard for me to talk about sex without feeling blasphemous."